I haven’t written in a long time because I couldn’t write, spell, or sometimes speak because of a rare side effect called radiation recall. I still have trouble with most words and sentences, but I am trying to write again. I guess I know I don’t know what to write about. It was January when I last wrote about anything. I am ready to start writing again, so this blog will have a life update and God update. 

I pray for a miracle everyday! I believe God gives miracles and I believe I’m going to receive one. I went to Texas to MD Anderson for a second opinion recently and they told me there was no option for me. The doctor told me, “You’re a miracle, I can’t believe you are sitting in front of me. When I last I saw you, I gave 12 weeks to live.” That was in October in 2023. It’s now May 2025! 

My health is not well and difficult choices unfortunately will have to be made sooner than later, but I will worry about that LATER! But I’m praying for a healing miracle. I’m hoping my doctors come up with a plan to help give me more time with family and friends! I care a lot when it comes to my health and treatment of my cancer. It is one of the rarest cancers in the world. I’m younger and the first case at Vanderbilt. My team of doctors is great at beating the odds and keeping me alive. I have to give glory to Jesus for giving them knowledge to take care of me and my case for the two years. I was reminded of 1 Timothy 4:8 NIV “For Physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise for both the present life and the life to come.”

I will start with how it depressed me out of my life, this cancer. My health has really gone down since the end of January. We really thought I was doing well. I had a decent brain scan with no tumor and decreased swelling. The chemo was working. Then I got a CT scan of my body and I found my cancer had grown to my lungs. Right now I’m not well despite how I look. I had to go to the hospital at the end of January and found out I had 2 new heart tumors and 5 growing lung tumors. Due to blood counts, especially platelets going dangerously low, I haven’t to get chemo in 15 weeks so my tumors are rapidly growing. My heart tumors are blocking 50% of my Left Atrial and the Mitral Valve which is very dangerous.  All my  surgeons say I’m not a candidate for surgery to scoop the heart tumors out so right now I have no options besides chemo, which I cannot take at the moment because of critically low platelets. 

When critically low, a normal person platelets are 130s-370s according to Vanderbilt. I have to check them repeatedly for weeks in my 20s. This makes me not a candidate for chemo, surgery, or any treatments because of needing platelet transfusions, and with the blood shortage, it’s difficult to get one. With low critical low platelets I cannot have surgery on my brain or heart because it is too risky. I’m trying to rapidly raise my platelets up because that is preventing me from getting chemo at the moment. My bone marrow is not working to produce my platelets correctly. 

I went to MD Anderson in Houston, Texas, for another second opinion from a world-known Sarcoma Doctor but I wasn’t given an option for treatment or clinical trials. It’s hard and heartbreaking but I have faith that God has a miracle for me. When people see me, they don’t believe I am sick as I am.  Honestly, I’m closer to death than I have ever been on this journey, but I think that God is telling me that I need to rest and let Him take over and give him all the control and quit trying to control it myself. My body is starting to fail if I let it. I push myself really hard to fight as much as I can. 

How the Faith update? Everyday the journey is harder and harder. But I wake up everyday and thank God that I have a day to take a breath, even though breaths get harder to take. I have rededicated my life to the Lord. I was studying the Bible every day. I still get lost, confused, and anxious about all that I’m going through. But I don’t feel like this cancer is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me.  I know it sounds crazy, but this cancer has brought me closer to God than I’ve ever been and I get up every morning and I pray to Him that He touches me and gives me the wisdom power and not knowledge to get up and show someone that as long as you trust in Him you can do anything go through anything and come out on the strong side. Today I was doing my devotional and it was actually May 8 and Jesus is calling and the scripture was John 16:33 NLT. “I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” 

That right there shows you that you trust in the world you’re not gonna have peace, but if you trust in the Lord and give all your worries and doubts to Him, He will carry you through the storms, the hard times that you have in life, the illnesses, and even the little things. Even a little fender bender, or you stump your toe,even a bad hair day! I was talking to family today and they all said, “Taylor, how many blessings and miracles have you gone through in the two years that you have cancer?  Every single doctor that you run into can believe that you can talk, walk, write blogs…everything that you’ve gone through! They are astonished because you are a walking miracle. You have beat the odds of the cancer and your testimony is not over. You’re not done. Jesus has a plan for you, and we don’t know what that plan is, but every single morning wake up and praise him for another breath.” I praise Him for another day to worship Him, to give Him all the glory and share His word, even through Facebook and  Instagram. When I go to the coffee shop, when I go to the doctors office, when I go to the store, I praise Him. 

My preacher asked me one day, “What do you want Taylor?” I said, “More time,” and he goes, “What are you gonna do with more time?” I didn’t have an answer. Every single Sunday after that, he asked, “What do you wanna do with more time?” and I didn’t have a answer. One day I was doing my devotionals and God talked to me and He went, “Taylor. You’re either gonna go to seminary school or you’re gonna do mission work or become a preacher.” And I know that is my calling when I get healed. I’m going to spread the word of my testimony all over the world. I’m going to share how I’ve been healed, not by modern medicine, but by the good Lord and I’m going to give praise to Him because He has given me the chance to change my life and saved me. I can really make a difference all over the nations, and I won’t be able to do it without the help of my community and the people that have blessed me with support prayers and who believe that I will be healed from cancer. 

Cancer is from the devil and the devil cannot win and it’s not going to win. I’m putting my gloves on and I’m fighting to the very end. So I just want to say to my friends, family, my community, and everyone who has supported me and prayed for me all over the world, keep on praying. There’s a miracle that is gonna happen and it’s gonna surprise everyone. I’m not finished with spreading God’s word all over the nations.  This kind of goes with Mother’s Day, which is coming up the weekend I write, but is there Jeremiah 1:5 NLT  “I knew you before I formed you, your mother’s womb. Before you were born, I set you apart and appointed you as my prophet to the nations.”