Nurse Turned Patient

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  • The Depression Hits

    The Depression Hits

    This is the part of my life, treatment, cancer journey– whatever you want to call it–that I just want to be left alone. I want to sit in my house crying because even though my treatment is working, the side effects of my treatment cause me more problems than my cancer does. As patients we

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  • Pink, Purple, Orange, and Reds

    Pink, Purple, Orange, and Reds

    Pink, purple, orange, and reds. Can you guess what I’m looking at while writing on this chilly spring night?  If you guessed a beautiful sunset, you’re right.  I feel like I haven’t seen a sunset in forever. I don’t know if by the time the sun is setting I’m so fatigued that I don’t get

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  • Momma’s Boy

    Momma’s Boy

    “Tuesday, January 31st, 1995, at 10:02 pm, that’s the day I got my best friend for life.”  Some of you might think, “Oh that’s so sweet, it’s Taylors sibling or cousin.”  No, it’s my Momma! My Momma is my best friend and always will be. Everyone who meets me knows or soon finds out that

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  • Hometown

    Hometown

    Cannon County  I cross that county line and breathe a sigh of relief. I know that I’ve made it to my safe place, the place I call home. A place where we say, oddly enough,  our car drives better. The place that has raised me up from birth and helped my parents grow me into

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  • Dear Younger Self,

    Dear Younger Self,

    Dear Younger Self,  I’m writing to you from the future. The future that is nothing like you thought it would be. The future in which you thought you would be married, have kids, live in a big house and have a job of a lifetime by now. None of that happened, and it’s a future

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  • F.I.G.H.T

    F.I.G.H.T

    One day while praying this question kept coming to my mind, “When you think of cancer, what is the first word you think of?” The first word to flash in my mind was FIGHT! I got to thinking about the word FIGHT and what it meant and how it connected to cancer. Then I got

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  • Did You Really Just Say That?

    Did You Really Just Say That?

    What do you say to people who have just been diagnosed with cancer, going through cancer treatment, or any illness that you really can’t see? No one really knows until you’re that person who is diagnosed. I’m a nurse, and I thought I really knew what to say to people who were sick. Boy was

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  • Grieving But Not Dead…

    Grieving But Not Dead…

    I have been seeing and reading a lot on the topic of grief and grieving lately. Today I got to thinking about grief and what it means to me and the journey that grief and I have shared.  In my opinion, grief is something you feel when something doesn’t go back to the way it

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  • Part 4- Follow the Flutters

    I began immunotherapy alongside radiation because tumors kept growing like wildflowers, and I kept having brain bleeds. The immunotherapy hadn’t had enough time to work so I was back to a waiting game. I was up to 27 brain tumors and 5 brain bleeds at that point. The holidays came back around again and this

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  • Part 3- A Little Fight Left

    Part 3- A Little Fight Left

    Fast forward to June and July, and I was ready for the beach. I had an opportunity to go with my big family, cousins included, and I was all set for sun, sand, and with a whole new appreciation for life. I was having a complete blast, but something kept feeling just a little bit

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